I left his room untouched for the days that I feel I need to be close to him. The pain of losing a child cannot be explained, only experienced.

I find I am Pregnant, and I am terrified, and I am surprised, I don't know what to do. 5 years without a whisper of pregnancy and here it is when I wasn't even trying.  But I knew from the second I picked up that test that I loved you.

I remember taking that pregnancy test - 3 times negative and 4th time positive. I remember those movements like they were yesterday. Why you left us I will never know.

I wrote this poem following the birth of my daughter, Autumn Nancy, 13 months after my first daughter Mara Ivy was stillborn.