Please be aware Scarlet has chosen to share pictures of Reuben with her story.

Two months. That’s how long I had with my son, Reuben. 

After a rocky start in the hospital, he was born full term, but he was poorly. He came home and was doing so well, hitting milestones and filling our house with life and smiles and love. But on February 17th 2024, my life changed forever. 

Earlier that day Reuben had his first vaccinations, but we had a normal day, went to bed, then I woke up to my little boy unresponsive. I performed CPR, the doctors fought for him, but he was gone. 

Walking him to the morgue through those quiet corridors, I’ve never felt more alone in my life. I’m sharing this because Reuben’s life mattered, and the pain of his absence is a weight I carry every single day. I felt like no one understood, my baby had died but there was no reason for it. I felt stuck, cheated. I just couldn’t face the world. 

It’s taken me two years to share his story and I’m still as far in now as I was then. I’m currently fundraising for Sands, doing 2k everyday and I’m hoping to go over it. I’ve raised £107 so far.