Admittedly I'd left it to have children at 38, but when I fell pregnant with Eleanor I was so excited and happy.

My world came crashing down when I started to feel under well after 9 days of medical treatment I lost her at 17 weeks + 6.

The pain for me and my partner was overwhelming but had some hope when I fell pregnant again. My second pregnancy was easier and extra medical intervention but sadly we lost Mary at 22 weeks +3 a neonatal death.

Two losses in 7 months - it has taken a large part of me and my heart.

I get up each day for my girls. I have good days and terrible ones.

I have great friends and family and some who just don't what to say and blame for my losses.

I wouldn't be without my girls even though it's been the most painful experience.

For me now it about celebrating my girls and breaking down the stigma.