My name is Emma McManus, I am 31 years old, wife to Patrick and mummy to 3 absolute gems.

It’s just gone 11 years since my baby girl went to heaven.

30th January 2018 I discovered I was pregnant it was so unexpected but I felt blessed, a few weeks later we were told we were to expect twins!

Charlie only had a short time on this earth, 36 weeks and 3 days to be precise.

After morning sickness in the first trimester, my pregnancy was smooth until 20 weeks.

In May 2018 when I was 25 weeks pregnant my husband and I sat in a cardiologist’s office and listened while we were told that our daughter had a serious heart defect, Transposition of t

I was 41 weeks and 6 days pregnant, I had just went to my appointment that Thursday morning and WE HEARD HIS HEARTBEAT!

Melissa Duckett - I will remember you

Lyrics by Amy Payne

On Monday 17th December 2018 I was doing my normal day to day activities... I cooked dinner and went to the toilet before bed.

I’m sorry...

I’m sorry I couldn’t find that beautiful beating heart.

I’m sorry that we met like this.

I’m sorry that you’re here.

I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant with my 1st born and on my 20 week scan I was told it was going to be a little boy 💙

Kaitlyn is our second child. We have another daughter, Mia, who turned three just before Christmas. My pregnancy with Kaitlyn was what you would call “textbook”.

Enya Jean Lethwaite was born 6th May 2018 sleeping.

11 years ago just NYE passed, myself and my now husband found out we were pregnant.

The weeks and months were hard after the funeral. Life was complicated and I didn’t know how to deal with any of it. I lost a piece of me – my Harrison, my beautiful boy.