On Monday 17th December 2018 I was doing my normal day to day activities... I cooked dinner and went to the toilet before bed.

With no sign or symptom I felt something bulge out of me. To my horror and despair it was Baillie, my beautiful boy’s legs hanging out.

I was 20 weeks pregnant. I waited for an ambulance, with no feeling other than numbness.

I got to the hospital where they prompted me to give birth to my son naturally.

This was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Words cannot describe the pain I am in right now.

I have so many unanswered questions.

So many emotions.

All I do is cry, I can’t eat or sleep. I feel broken.

Nothing is going to take this pain away.

I wish every day that something could but nothing is helping.